To love is better than not to be loved at all

COACH has some new stuff. And it is so tempting. I have no idea why I am blogging early in the morning. Maybe this is just one of the way to distract myself from work. I feel frustrated with her sending me an email. And DUH!! ANd I realised it's my fault. For being such a goons to read my work email yesterday when I should be enjoying myself.. DOUBLE DUH!!!

And back to my COACH.com, the new arrival's beary hot. Bee got tired of me looking at COACH.COM all the time. We almost got into a quarrel yesterday. He wants me to think of our future.. Who says I don't! But the thought of applying for a flat is so taxing. Well yes, having self owned flat is good.. One of the advatages I can think of right now, you can just walk naked with no one to bother, then again, the thought of having a lifetime commitment is just heavy. Plus with the preparations of the upcoming big event . Anyway we have applied for a PUNGGOL flat. I can see he's pretty excited about it. I have not feel the excitement yet. Just yet.

Big day is in 3 months time. I am feeling all jitters. Really. One thing for sure, I am STILL fat. Or maybe fatter!!! And I kept dreaming about the marriage. I dreamt that on the day of my wedding I forgot to wear my henna. And I dreamt about it thrice. And the last dream I had was about me being fat on wedding day.

I suspect I have slight amnesia.. Actually I dunno what to call it so it will be a mini amnesia. I can forget about convesation even after 5 mins.I forgot where I place things. The other time I came to work, I got panic about some work issues, I placed my wallet at the public PC in my workroom for the whole morning which before on of my colleagues decided to find out. I did not realise it until lunchtime, when my HLO opened the wallet to see whom it belongs to. And yours truly dun even realised she has misplaced her wallet. How cool!! Even my partner in crime at work got disturbed by my incomplete sentences. She will always gave me this," hello madam, can you dun tell me things halfway, can or not. U think I know what you are talking about." I just forgot what I wanted to say at times!!!

I think I know what I need.

A break.

A holiday.

A pamper treat.

A getaway.

Urgh.. Okay.. Tahan.. Tahan.. 3 more months..

How time flies!!