Slap me till I'm awake.

A lot of things playing in my mind. Good things and bad. As usual, I'm indecisive. I hate conflicts as much as confrontations. I have lost something. Something that I have before status change. And I guessed I'm not used to it. I could feel that I'm still myself. However the effects of having to lose it only comes when I sense some reactions. Disapprove I must say. After a while ignorance came..
Immature. Child like. Tried not to be but it's so hard. I have been living my own way. Our own way. Hard to make people understood the lifestyle. But all the reasoningsstill reflects to what I have lost. Unhappy. Yes I'm feeling it. But I'm shutting off my ear, my eyes, my heart to all. Talking in circles. I'm confused.

Freedom. To everything. For me. For Us. I want it back :(