the pain of the past

Nobody knew or understand what I really went thru, that maketh what I am today.
You can blame me for being swayed..
You can blame me for not having principle..
You can blame me for being stupid..
But all I want is to tell the truth...
I can't...
Coz I am afraid..
I am so afraid that I have to be pretentious..
I am so afraid that I have to make a wrong move..
Maybe it's juz me...
I dunno what to say or where to start..
I juz let it be.. for you to judge me..