the worst beautiful day of my life

Truthfully yesterday when your mum invited me to your aunt's hous, I was excited. It would be the first time in all the years I have known you and what's more, the ultimate reason why I wasn't invited all these years. So I kindda felt proud because I thought finally I was accepeted "officially" as part of the beautiful family. And i wanted so much to blog about the "dream came true". Alas, it was you who destroyed the beautiful memory of the day.

I tried too hard and almost gave up. It hurt so much and all I wanted is to cry my heart out but there was no tears, until just now, when I heard your voice saying sorry. I am uncertain of your sincerity though. You have changed. Very much, It seems that your heart has hardened. I may not speak out at times but that doesnt mean that I am not thinking. Sometimes when you speak, I can hear grudges. When you react, I could feel distance. All these, I pushed aside because I thought I was strong enuff.

But whatever happened yesterday was too much for me. I cannot understand why I was treated that way. Was it all over? Was it something that was not meant to be and I was hanging to it? It seems I do not know you at all.

I accepted your apology and hold on to your promise never to treat me that way again. I hold on to your words that you do love me after all. I will hold on strong.