a rojak gal in a rojak moment

As the dates getting nearer, I fell into a moment of depression and somehow my fall accidentally press the panic button. I am so into my endless job ryte now that I hardly have a life. I just want people to know what I want or wish and treat me good rather than having me to bear or solve any situations that is proved futile.

I've always dream of "everything" perfect. A perfect date. A perfect wedding.
A perfect birthday. A perfect workplace. A perfect life. A perfect "driving licence".

Then again, nobody's perfect. But I believe that above the "nobody's perfect", it's up to an individual to make it perfect.

It's too much for me to handle. I am handling it all alone.
If these don't make me stronger, I dun noe what else does?!

*sigh* Please dun ask what's my entry all about.

At this moment I am feeling very confused.